Nothing.............

i hate this time of year! i'm so freakN poor and my husband decides to go crazy on ebay.  i work hard and my body hurts so much. It is like i am working for nothing!!! Please help everything to get better...

This is really crappy.

R.I.P.

Boogie died :-(
alone...
at the animal hospital
They didn't even call us.
We had to call them to find out what was going on.

Love you Boogie Babie!

Using my mini doughnut maker, i made pancakes for dinner. They were good.

i miss myself..

i'm so tired.

Work keeps getting worse.

The holidays are here.

i miss my daddy, mommy and my grandmother. i miss my whole family! i miss my old life. i wouldn't trade Harley or Dale for anything.. but still miss it.

My feet hurt constantly.

This really BITES!

The idiots fucked up the roof. It doesn't look like it has new shingles. With out a new roof we won't have insurance and we will be kicked out of here. We don't have any money to even go to a motel since we spent all our money on the roof. What to do......

We might lose the house. ;-/

i am scared.
i might have cancer.
i am going to the doctor today.
i hope they can tell me something.
i hope it is from my thyroid medication just playing with my hormones.
i am very very scared.
We don't have the money to go through this..
My family will be homeless if i die.
We might be homeless anyway with all the stupid stuff going on.
Cancer is one of the things i am most scared of in this world. :-(\
Please god, don't let me have cancer....

 Um.. it's my birthday.
Yah...
Wee..
Alone all day.
Miss my parents.
Miss having friends. 
This so sucks.
i'm a loser.

Will be homeless next week. Bubye doggies and kitties. ;-( i want to die.

FRACK ME UP THE FRACK PLACE!!

Back to school... back to school.. to prove to dad i'm not a fool
i want to watch Billy Madison 

I need a break from everything.

Stupid headache! Now i'm going to be in misery for days. :-/

:-(

My husband is a jobless jerk!
And in a couple of weeks we will be homeless!
My life is so wonderful!
i love all my health problems too!

No money..
Dale keeps renewing his subscription to Go Animate and... to This one website where he chats with and looks at naked girls doing naughty things on cam..
i feel loved..

I seriously thought i was going to die today. Felt like my chest was going to exploded. i couldn't even think it was so bad. i told my husband this. He didn't seem to care. i miss my daddy, mommy and my grandma.. No one else truly gives a shit.

My Dad died yesterday....

I am so tired of all this crap....................
i feel like shit.
i'm so sick of work. 
i work so hard and no one gives a shit.
i come home and everything is shit.
My husband doesn't appreciate me at all.
He takes care of the dogs, but does nothing else.
i miss having a friend.
i miss feeling ok.
i can't even kill myself.. if i did who would take care of Harley and Dale.
Dale can't do shit.
Harley to young to take care of himself.
i don't know what to do.
i try to take better care of myself now, but it is difficult. i am so tired.

Poor Ollie :-(

Isn't it really AWESOME when your husband keeps blowing money on things from Ebay??! Especially when the house you live in can get taken away and fall apart at any moment. And he is on unemployment which is about to run out. And you work at a crappy place that doesn't pay very well. And that job doesn't give you raises or anything.AND you are in debt up to your eye balls in medical bills. AND you piece of shit van is on it's last leg! i Love my life!!!

I guess Heidee has cancer...

MY head hurts soooooo bad!!! 
i'm not going to try anymore..
i give up.

Ooooooo i love her, but i want to kill that Fucking DOG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Someone please come kidnap me!!!!

Might as well be DEAD

No one reads this, except for me. Which is kinda good. i don't like people being all touchy about what i write.
I give up!. Screw the world! i can't take this crap anymore. i'm going to do what i want to do!. No more stepping stone. You fuck with me.. i fuck with you! I still care.. i really do. I am not going to get treated like trash anymore tho. I keeping laughing at myself and crying while i am typing this. That is how fucking mad i am. And i am reading this out load, so it makes it kinda funny.i'm going to take care of Robin now. i  know i still have to take care of my family, but i've left myself in the dark for so long. i'm not going to abuse myself anymore.
 Love you Robin!

i know i keep babbling on like an idiot... but no one is reading this or gives a shit. So i will continue to do what the fuck i want. I'm not going to be a pansy anymore. i can't have my old body back or the opportunities  i once had... but i'm going to try to take better care of myself. i'm going to let the old Robin back in and FUCK YOU WORLD!! 

Guess i did something terrible in a past life or something................................

I don't know how i let my life get so fucked up. I ruined my body being so depressed. i am trapped in a intolerable situation. i screwed up! No my life is basically over. i just barely survive. It gets harder everyday just to exist.....

What is the Fucking Point REally?!!!!!!

i give up on everything

Crappy St. Patrick's Day. :-/

Fuck you world!

BitcheS!!!!!

i feel like i am going to have a stroke any second. i just wish Dale would be quiet for 2 seconds and the dogs would calm down. No one cares..
i'm scared.

i come from an over 7 hr shift to everything dirty. i cooked fried chicken.. pasta.. corn, biscuits and cupcakes and a cake! i get ignored and i'm a bitch!! Plus i have 2 almost 12 hr shifts the next 2 days! Love you 2 Asshole!

i want to run away 

The roof is about ready to cave in over the kitchen sink. Then we will be homeless. Don't even have money for a motel. Too many bills and i am the only one working. My husband is too lazy to do his unemployment review... so he gets no money.  i don't know what to do..

Every morning i'm in such high hopes for the day..... it's shattered quickly.....

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Don't you love Backstabbers?

My poor head and feet

So FUCKING irritated with everything! I feel like i'm going to have a STROKE!

Didn't do anything for Valentines day as usual....
I didn't have money to get Dale anything..
He never gets me anything..
He became distracted by T.V. like he does every year.
All i wanted it an hr together at least..
He usually pays attention to me for at least a few minutes.
This year i'm to fat and fucking hideous to merit any time at all!
Oh well, tomorrow i get to go to work and have fun trying not to want to blow my brains out!!!

HAPPY FUCKING VDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11

i HATE EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!1

My heart hurts

Valentines Day is tomorrow.
i feel like a fat sack of shit.

i wish things would get better...................................................................................................................................................................................................................

WHY????????????????????????????????????

Sick of Fucking Cunts!

i missed going to the circus with Harley. My body just hurt too bad and i was so tired. Fuckn work, fuckn body. He is the only one who wants to do anything with me anymore... pretty soon that will change.

:-'( :-'( :-'( :-'( :-'( :-'( :-'( :-'( :-'( :-'( :-'( :-'( :-'( :-'( :-'( :-'( :-'( :-'( :-'( :-'( :-'( :-'( :-'( :-'( :-'( :-'( :-'( :-'( :-'( :-'(

Can't stand him

Another day of torture and torment awaits! Least i get 2 days off from work.... It hurts so bad....... Wish i could take a break from life!

FUCK ME UP THE ASS!

i want to fucking watch my show more than two seconds without having to pause it!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:-/ No Money.. Cancer?... Dale Jail?.. Bye Bye Little Babies :'(  Stupid work...

dlǝɐsǝ ʞıll ɯǝ

:-(

My Life Really sucks. :-/
i Never do anything anymore...

I'm going to get FUCKING WASTED NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!;-)

Aliens

i hope aliens really do exist. They can take me home with them.

i think that is where i came from. i feel like i am from another planet, trapped here with all these humans.

People are stupid in general. They just keep getting stupider. Not saying i am that smart or anything. i'm just stupid in my own special way.

Crave

You're what i crave

You're all i need

on you i want to feed

Devour you piece by piece

until this burning is ceased

Hammering in my head

without you i'm mostly dead

Drowning in my lust for you

Anything you ask i'll do

Imprisoned by your eyes

In you i feel alive

Lost in you, don't want found

Rushing blood, the only sound

Crave

What i crave

You're what i crave

You're the thief of my soul

Locked in your arms

out of control

Stop this aching inside

Cure in you for me to find

Heart pounding in my ears

with you i have no fears

Crave

You're what i crave

So True!

Sometimes, your knight in shining armor, is just a retard in tin foil

i Feel Red Today..

You're are no one until someone thinks you are someone...

i am so F'N bored..

i hate what my life has become.

i've went famously nuts the last little while.

i don't think anyone really cares or has noticed.

i wonder how much more i can take until i completely crack.

i suppose it doesn't matter anyway.

i don't have enough money to be in the funny farm.

Once i am there they will probably return me anyway.

That is how nuts i am.

i don't know what to do anymore...

i feel like i am just existing...

i miss being alive.

i don't know what to do...