i feel so alone and so trapped.
All my friends are basically gone.

One of my best friends is living thursday.
She said she'll visit. 
That is what they all say...

My hubby is going to lose his jobs.
We can't live on my 1,000 a month
We are going to start getting our wages garnished anyway...

House is falling apart. A house we can get kicked out of anytime.

i'm alone all the time......
Tired of pretending i'm ok.
No one cares or understands.

i know i should move.. with what money???
i know i should get out there and make friends... i have so many health problems and no baby sitter...
i know i should find a new job... i have tried. The jobs that want me make it impossible for me to be home for my son. Can't leave a 9 year old home alone.
SO WHAT THE FUCK DO I DO????
i guess just sit here til they take me away to the crazy house....

Fear Factory - Invisible Wounds (Dark Bodies)

Fuck me so i feel it

Hate me
Hate me like you mean it. 
Fuck me, Fuck me so i feel it.
My body aches trembles and shakes.
Fuck it,
i don't care if this is a mistake.
Hate me, 
Hate me like you mean it.
Fuck me,
Fuck me so i feel it.
There is a darkness taking over me
Changing what i use to be.
Never again can i trust you.
Fuck it,
Throw me down and do what you want to.
Hate me,
Hate me like you mean it.
Fuck me,
Fuck me so i feel it.

NO MORE!!!!!!!!!

The Romantics - What I Like About You

i want to fucking leave. Fuck everytone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

Tom Cruise Dance as Les Grossman in Tropic Thunder - Extended - Music: G...

Fuck everything including you

Not going to do this anymore. Tired of being dissppointed and having nothing to look forward too. I can't count on anyone but myself. i am tired of my job. i am tired of the cats crapping everywhere and i am tired of the boy dogs pissing everywhere. i am tired of fighting to sleep. Just trying to get out of bed is a chore in itself. The only reason i have to keep on breathing. And i am afraid that someone is going to take him away. If that happens i have no reason for anything anymore. Then i won't be breathing anymore. And i won't do it some sissy way either. Not a way they could have hopes of bringing me back. i have it all planned.

Happy Birthday Mom i miss you with all my heart

Stuck In The Middle With You - Stealers Wheel