I guess Heidee has cancer...

MY head hurts soooooo bad!!! 
i'm not going to try anymore..
i give up.

Ooooooo i love her, but i want to kill that Fucking DOG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Someone please come kidnap me!!!!

Might as well be DEAD

No one reads this, except for me. Which is kinda good. i don't like people being all touchy about what i write.
I give up!. Screw the world! i can't take this crap anymore. i'm going to do what i want to do!. No more stepping stone. You fuck with me.. i fuck with you! I still care.. i really do. I am not going to get treated like trash anymore tho. I keeping laughing at myself and crying while i am typing this. That is how fucking mad i am. And i am reading this out load, so it makes it kinda funny.i'm going to take care of Robin now. i  know i still have to take care of my family, but i've left myself in the dark for so long. i'm not going to abuse myself anymore.
 Love you Robin!

i know i keep babbling on like an idiot... but no one is reading this or gives a shit. So i will continue to do what the fuck i want. I'm not going to be a pansy anymore. i can't have my old body back or the opportunities  i once had... but i'm going to try to take better care of myself. i'm going to let the old Robin back in and FUCK YOU WORLD!! 

Guess i did something terrible in a past life or something................................

I don't know how i let my life get so fucked up. I ruined my body being so depressed. i am trapped in a intolerable situation. i screwed up! No my life is basically over. i just barely survive. It gets harder everyday just to exist.....

What is the Fucking Point REally?!!!!!!

i give up on everything