I wish i could travel

i would love to solve mysteries. i would be good at it too.
Like Noah's Ark. With hardly any research at all, i had a feeling it is at the bottom of the Sea of Marmara.
I did alot of research after the fact. i found out that is where alot of people, that have been searching for decades , think it is. It took me ten minutes looking at a map, when it took them decades researching and exploring. AHAHAHA!

FUCKING HUNGRAY

Fuck :-(

Scotty Doesn't Know

i feel so alone and so trapped.
All my friends are basically gone.

One of my best friends is living thursday.
She said she'll visit. 
That is what they all say...

My hubby is going to lose his jobs.
We can't live on my 1,000 a month
We are going to start getting our wages garnished anyway...

House is falling apart. A house we can get kicked out of anytime.

i'm alone all the time......
Tired of pretending i'm ok.
No one cares or understands.

i know i should move.. with what money???
i know i should get out there and make friends... i have so many health problems and no baby sitter...
i know i should find a new job... i have tried. The jobs that want me make it impossible for me to be home for my son. Can't leave a 9 year old home alone.
SO WHAT THE FUCK DO I DO????
i guess just sit here til they take me away to the crazy house....